Happy Sunday!!! This morning as I was forcing myself to eat breakfast (cuz I've gotta get these gangly muscles back to normal!), I was thinking what I would be doing if I were at home today. Blake and Brooke and I would be getting ready for church and planning our afternoon before they go to their dad's house. I haven't really been a Momma to them in almost three weeks, and that was Mother's Day weekend. This has been a whirlwhind.....to say the least! I miss my "babies", and I just don't think I'll quit hugging their necks and kissing them for about 30 minutes (unless you guys run away from me, of course) when I finally get to see them!!! I love you, Blake and Brooke....oodles and oodles and gobs and gobs!!! Hope I'm not embarassing you guys, but remember, I am your mom, and that's kind of an underwritten right that I have! Teehee! :)
I found out a little while ago that I'm finally being moved to a new room (669)....yet another milestone hurdle to get me one step closer to home!! They are anticipating that I will be released on Wed. or Thursday of this week if I continue to improve. Yippee, Skippy!!! I was sick more than half of May, so June is looking more promising already!! I can't wait!! Jessica (one of my wonderful nurses) insisted I get a private room there because I've made such great progress, I'm from Arkansas, and "you never know who's going to pop in to visit"! :) What a jewel she has been!
.....which brings me to my next thought. In my list of "thank yous" yesterday (I told you, I'd leave someone out!), I don't feel like I properly thanked all the doctors, nurses, techs, specialists, etc. who cared for me in Rogers and in St. Louis. I was "thinking it in my mind", but I didn't portray it in my post, and I'm very sad about that! Without them, and God givng them the knowledge and determiniation to treat me and care for me, I would not be here! Thank you, thank you, thank you!!! I owe you my life! :)
Sunday is a day of rest, and I think I'll adhere to that a lot more when I get home--in fact, I've had lots of time to think about my priorities, spreading myself so thin, and burning it at both ends for such a very long time. I think I figured that I've been going pretty much non-stop since I was 18 years old. I've always been in school, working, going, doing, having babies, running, playing, raising kids, vacationing, more schooling, more working...you get the picture...and I've not really rested. That is something that has come to my attention, and I won't ignore it. I told God thank you again this morning for giving me a second chance at life, I promised Him I wouldn't take it for granted, and I would sllllooooowwwww down and just be. I think He was pretty excited to hear that, and I do believe I heard his voice whisper, "It took alot to get your attention...let's not do that again." :)
Instead of closing with a scripture today, I'm going to copy the lyrics to a song I heard on KLRC online earlier and a link to a video that goes with it. I't s called "Who Am I?" by Casting Crowns, and the words really hit home. I hope you enjoy them:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e7gfTYyLEHg&feature=related
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours
I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours
Have a wonderful rest of the weekend!
Much Love~
Joey :)
